Noticing incel-ish behaviour again after improving my life.

Havent been on here in a while. Mainly because ever since august I've just had much more serious things to worry about. Anyways now I'm doing much better than I was a few months ago. I have a job again, Ive been a lot happier recently. But recently I've noticed that since a lot of the harsher issues I had a few months ago are now mostly under control I've started to be very weird about women again.

It all started when I noticed that I unintentionally see a lot of the women I interact with as "potential partners" rather than another human. Like if I was only interacting with them with the purpose of eventually having a romantic relationship with them.

This combined with some other issues I was having motivated me to start doing NoFap (but not on some weird "dont touch your dick for 700 days and youll be able to teleport" stuff I just genuinely think toning it down a little bit would help me). Mainly for the purpose of being able to interact with women without being such a creep about it but I think its having the opposite effect.

Ever since around new years I just have not been able to stop thinking about sex. Usually when I am alone just sitting there my mind thinks about "oh what should i do tomorrow" "this song is really cool". But for the past week or so it's just been non-stop sexual urges, and since like I said I'm on NoFap right now for my own good, I cant give into them, and its bringing back a lot of old issues I completely forgot about temporarily. Feeling like an unlovable weirdo, impulsively browsing reddit trying to find misandrist posts, feeling some mild resentment against anyone who has a better life than me. Its just a non stop cycle of sexual urge > why do you want sex so much thats weird > im probably an unlikable person for wanting this so much > now i want it even more because i want to know what it feels like to be desired that way.

So I guess the real solution here would be how do I stop thinking about sex so much. I cant masturbate because I need to start seeing women as people instead of "potential mates" but doing that just makes me even weirder about women. I genuinely dont know what to do.

This is probably a weird ass post but its a genuine problem for me. Its 1 A.M and its keeping me up right now. If a few hours pass and I dont reply I am probably asleep mods dont worry though ill check this post when I wake up.