Give me your best heart-wrenching suggestions

I want to feel that physical sensation of my stomach dropping or heart breaking. It could be that MMC does FMC an injustice and feels an intense regret etc.

I last felt like this when I read {Once and Always by Judith McNaught} after the dubcon (or noncon?) scene years ago. She is absolutely the only author who made me feel emotions that intense so far.

I can still tolerate some dubcon/noncon as long as it’s not brushed over but when it’s a plot point of regret and heart ache.

I also want to feel the love forming. I don’t want it to be “omg intense sexual attraction, never felt like this before, but its not love duhh” then “omg it is love!!”. It’s too cliche for my taste at this point.

Regardless of the heart ache, I’d like it to have a happy ending. Steamy books are also welcome.