Hppd recovery with drugs
I got hppd around 2 years ago after after doing mushrooms and a lot of strong weed at 17. Months later all of a sudden I had pretty damn severe hppd. Static, floaters, trails, undulating/melting ground and walls, after images, tinnitus, headaches, and nasty dissociation usually after smoking weed.
Today, I’m pretty much fine. I’ll go weeks or months where I forget this condition exists. What’s more? I’ve literally been smoking weed an hour after I wake up till bed every day like clockwork ever since my college classes ended. I took 2 grams of some strong mushrooms a month ago. And a few days ago I took 0.33 grams of those shrooms before a concert alongside a fat joint. I’m fact I’m taking rips of the pen as I write this (hope it doesn’t show too much). Enough about how I’d be the coolest kid at the high school lunch table though. Let’s talk about why I can do this and be fine.
To be completely honest once you have hppd it’ll never go away. I know that’s what you’re afraid of hearing but get this, everybody has hppd. My mother has brought up offhand that when she’s stressed she sees the floor undulate (described like what I see even though I’ve never told her about mushrooms or hppd). I once told a group of stoned friends to focus on where your hand was not where it’s going while moving it and they all saw a trail. Many of my friends have seen the strong static you see on bright snow if any of my northerners know what I’m talking about.
Hppd visuals are portions of your vision your brain usually filters out but you can choose to focus on. If you are the kind of person who is a hypochondriac or is prone to anxiety hppd is likely a manifestation of your concern over your brain health. Furthermore I’d even go so far as too assume that most of you had some sort of difficulties during your childhood. Maybe nothing major but it doesn’t take much to harm a child’s thinking patterns or impart your own neurosis’s upon your offspring. I recommend looking into cptsd and trauma processing and journaling/meditation. You’d be surprised how much a couple epiphanies can change your mindset and make you calmer and more confident/fulfilled. ^ This whole paragraph is very much my opinion
HOW TO STOP SYMPTOMS Imagine a Chinese finger trap, a non existent problem when you don’t care, however if you panic it seems like you can’t win. The more you hyper fixate on these weird things the brain can do, that you may have discovered through psychedelics, the more your brain shows you said “symptoms”.
To this day I forget that shit exists, occasionally I’ll see a trail when I’m really stoned but I’ve learned to ignore it. What you tell yourself about the drugs you take tend to feel like reality. If you just accept that weed may make you tweak but is prolly only gonna make you a lil slow and forgetful in the long run bit ruin your vision. Then you will enjoy your weed way more. You have to come to terms with the fact that you are tweaking about something that really will not hurt you and can only get better as long as you learn to not let it get to you. Give it time and trust the process, don’t track progress, that’s just more hyper fixating. Once you focus on the things you’re doing in your life you’ll forget what hppd is in no time. I understand a lot of you are young so it’s hard to find goals, I recommend body building, it’s fun and good for a calm mind imo.
Side note dissociation is a normal symptom of anxiety for some people it comes from kids who grew up in environments they did not like but could not escape. Everything your brain does is on purpose, your brain is protecting you from your own volatile anxiety and or emotion. Chinese finger trap applies to this too.
To conclude: I really hope this reaches someone who’s panic scrolling this subreddit. Just figured I’d write this because I remembered how much unnecessary stressing I did before realizing this. Go outside, talk to the opposite gender (or whichever you want) have a hobby. Even if it somehow did stay are you going to let these things ruin precious days on this planet.