anyone relate

i have recently just realised that it seems that most people on here know that they have hocd and allways say that ‘deep down they know they are straight’ and stuff like that Whereas for me it feels completely different.

It’s almost like i literaly have no idea of im straight anymore or if i like men. my ‘hocd’ (or this obsession) started just over a month ago and i allways had crushes on women and never liked men Before

whereas now its like ive lost all my attraction to women and feel so much more attracted to men, so its like i dont know if i actually am gay now, as it almost seems impossible to not be gay considering i have little attraction for women and more for men.

I don’t have this knowledge that ‘i know im straight’ like everyone else seems to have and im wandering if anyone feels the same and if its normal for hocd to not feel like your straight with intrusive gay thoughts, but instead feel extremely convincing that your gay.

It almost feels like i think i don’t have hocd

ik allot of people think they are different but it’s almost like i feel that if i knew it was hocd then i wouldn’t care about the thoughts as i know they are fake. however as i havnt been diagnosed the thoughts bother me much more.