Little Angel [Medicine]
Category: Psychology
Little Angel go away I don’t care for what you say, the devil has my ear today.
He’s promised solace and peace of mind. So long as I leave this world behind.
I wish I could say that I’d stand and fight, against my demons of the night.
But it is so dark, so bleak, so black, I haven’t the strength to drive them back.
I gave up on a cure many years ago. Resigned to pain I’ll always know.
A lifetime spent at war with my mind, I no longer believe it will heal in time.
There is no hope nor cure for me. This is the way things will always be.
So little angel go away. And take the devil on your way.
I have six shots, but only need one, to find my solace in a loaded gun.
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I feel no joy, or love, just pain. Every day is always the same.
I wish for death but dare not die, yet unwilling to let my soul fly.
There are those who love me still. I can not harm them no matter my will.
So little angel come what may, I can not end my life today…
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Get up child and take my hand, let me light your way. Together we will walk a road that leads into the dawning day.
The path is dark and the road is long but I know where it will end. This is the road to nowhere and it’s where your healing can begin.
This longest road to nowhere, starts here where we stand,and each step will take us deeper, into a half forgotten land.
This road we walk together takes us through the hourglass’ sands, until you stand among the memories, of where it all began.
You’ve lived your life in the shadow of some half remembered dread. But no longer will you suffer dreams that end only with you dead.
Your strength is gone, your will is failing, but still an ember burns. When those sparks become a flame, triumph you’ll have earned.
For any of that to happen, this first step you must take. Together now and bravely: the longest road awaits!
With this first step of many, there are now shadows you’ve left behind. Every stride will grow your strength as the darkness wanes in time.
The darkest night is before the dawn and the dawn is almost nigh. Don now your arms and armour, and look your terrors in the eye.
They learned to feed on who you were not who you have become: your strength restored, your will reforged, your past stands now undone.
Unburdened of your pain, freed from the shadows of the mind. Whatever the horrors took from you, in the future you shall find.
The truth my friend is that we’re almost done. We've almost reached the end. And what awaits you there is nothing but the chance to begin again.
Time has passed but we both know that memories remain, of who you are, who you were, and who you wished that you’d became.
I wish that I could follow you and see the life you’re sure to lead, but alas I fear that doing so would deprive those who are in need.
I forever walk the longest road casting my light into the dark, in search of pained and broken souls who bear darkness’ mark.
As I walked this road together with you I will walk it evermore, until my strength fails me and I take my place at death’s door.
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Little Angel come what may, I’m glad I didn’t die that day.
The pain is there as it will always be, but it no longer has a hold on me.
The shadows lie broken by the light, I can bravely face the coming night.
My demons have fled and are fading fast, my mind is free of their choking grasp.
I look behind and my guide’s light fades, another life yet to save.
I don’t know what my future holds, but I still remember the longest of roads.
Arms, light, and armour given, in my wake the terrors lie riven.
The roads ahead are clear and bright, I’ll find my future in the light.
So little angel come with me, together now and bravely: An untravelled road awaits.
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Alright well... I now understand why poetry is a completely separate category from "standard" (for lack of a better word) literature. This was a hell of a lot harder than I thought it would be but here we are. I think that's all the poetry I have in me for a while.
As always: Thanks for reading. Thoughts, Critiques, and Feedback are always appreciated and needed.
Special thanks to u/ArchDemonKerensky for proof reading.