I'm addicted to studying, and it feels awful.

I know it may sound like a dream to some of you, but I feel stuck, and in a vicious cycle.

When I start something, I only stop when I feel satisfied, and see that I'm not longer a beginner in a given subject. Just quitting midway is painful, to me. That also stops me from trying to find a job, because I feel like I'm never enough so I don't apply.

It's gotten to a point where I can't take 20 minutes to watch an Anime episode to chill, or play a game, and having to stop to eat or take care of my pets makes me angry and on a bad mood.

The more I study ( sometimes up to 12 hours ), I feel my humanity diminishing. I'm currently on winter break from university, but I can't stop studying ( not just uni stuff ).

It goes much deeper than that, but I understand that this is not a vent subreddit.

Does anyone have any advice on how to balance things out? I'm at a point where I might break.