Bf broke up with me

So yesterday, my ldr bf of almost 3 months broke up with me on call. This comes a few days after his parents suddenly and unexpectedly forbid him from meeting up with me and cancelled the hotel booking they themselves had made only 2 days before. This opportunity to meet was what we‘d been counting down towards essentially our entire relationship so it was a tremendous disappointment and seemed to hit him especially hard. What followed was a week of little communication, with me always texting first, and no calls either, since he was also quite busy. So on Friday, the day I used to have been waiting for since it would be the last day of school before the meeting, he tells me he can’t give our relationship everything he wants to and that breaking up would be less painful. So now I‘m heartbroken over the first person who ever romantically loved me having to leave me and knowing that he is also taking this badly. I just wish things hadn’t gone this way, that we could be happy right now. And all the promises he made in earnest on how he‘d never leave me pain me also. We had plans for the future. I don’t want to be alone again, it really hurts. And it hurts knowing that he is devastated as well. All my once treasured memories now feel like spikes in my heart. Hope you all have happier holidays than me

Anyway, anyone know some good M4M comfort asmr?