How do you have the will to live

I made a mistake in 2022 and I’m on what I believe is deferred adjudication for attempt to commit aggravated assault with a deadly weapon. It’s a long story but basically I used to do a lot of psychedelics and one day I blacked out while driving (wasn’t on shrooms at the time) and got into a wreck. Now I’m trying to complete my probation 2 years after the incident and I called my attorney’s office and asked them if I will be able to get it expunged or at least non-disclose. They told me I won’t be able to. So I set up a call with my attorney to confirm and ask further question. I don’t know what he’ll say tomorrow but if he says the same thing then I literally can’t think of a reason to live. All my dreams will be gone. Life is just gonna be trying to stay a float because you can barely do anything with a felony. So my question to people who are in my shoes, how do you truly find a will to live. I can’t see a reason. I’m also only 23