Need support

Hi. I can’t go into much detail right now because I’m feeling very unsteady, but I really need some support right now. This is the only place I feel even remotely comfortable sharing this.

Either I just got a huge download of information or I’m going batshit crazy, I don’t really see an in between. I hope it’s not the latter, but if it’s the former then I need help in calming my anxiety which you all seem to be very good at.

Very odd because up until this point I’ve been very calm, curious, and excited about the unexplained phenomena going on in our skies. But last night (I was smoking and believe weed helps me connect to and receive messages from higher dimensions) I had a full blown anxiety attack.

My internet research led me down a series of rabbit holes and I came upon information that resonated with me deeply. It was all “good” things, but my body/ego is having a very visceral reaction I feel is consistent with ontological shock.

I’ve been throwing up, shaking from head to toe, sweating in my sleep. So last night I had no choice but to ask for help from my spirit guide (who I really have not engaged with much because I’ve felt so certain of my spiritual beliefs I didn’t really ask for help in that regard.)

I pleaded for help and she very clearly says to me “You need to go to sleep. Everything will become clear to you tomorrow” (it was like 4am) and sure enough, I have received the answers I’ve been seeking. I feel a bit more calm, but the panic comes in waves and I have thrown up again today.

These are my most pressing questions to you. If you’ve experienced something that “broke your brain” and caused a paradigm shift, how did you navigate the ontological shock? Did you also think you were going batshit crazy? How long did these feelings of panic last?

Any and all help is so much appreciated. Thank you from the bottom of my heart

Edit: I posted this merely an hour ago and am already feeling overwhelming peace through your guys’ words. Thank you so so so much and please ask any questions and I will answer to the best of my ability when I am feeling up to it. I’m no prophet - we are all figuring this out together