I am frantically crying. I am not crazy, I just miss him so much.

I wish I can talk to him but I messaged him a month ago if we can talk and he ignored me. I have bad days and I have better days. 3 months after the break up, I woke up crying a lot. I miss him so much. I miss my heart. I'm not crazy. I never felt so much pain before.

What the fuck should I do ? I don't want to hear. Go to the gym, hang out with friends, pick up a hobby, IM DOING ALL OF THAT X 100000!!

It's like my best friend died but in reality he decided to never speak to me again.

I want my best friend back so badly.

And before you say , "you need to love yourself" I'm literally so obsessed with myself , I truly believe I am extremely beautiful and gifted (I am).

So if someone died, and you are grieving , you tell them to stop and love themselves?

I don't fucking understand . Wtf do I do.