Why do people take some of these meds recreationally?

Obviously medications that work in solving our seizures being grateful and enjoying it to be expected. However, based on my experience with seizure meds that started two years ago, i still dont understand why some people like taking them for recreational purposes. I never even look forward to taking a benzo rescue and I actually need it. I had to take one today out of fear of a grand mal and I feel awful(no I didn’t seize) the med always makes me feel that way but it’s the lesser of two evils at this point. It makes me groggy, dumb, slow, confused, tired and the list goes on and on. I really don’t see the appeal at all to Xanax and other benzos for anything other than medical reasons.