Guess my type

Can't relax until I've completed all of my responsibilities and have my home looking "beautiful". At least that's what I tell myself. When in all reality I keep creating more and more home improvement projects. If I ever do manage to reach my goals then I work on self improvement or help the people in my family improve. I try to keep up with everything until I hit burnout and then I seek escapism such as video games or tv. I could benefit from being able to cut loose. Determination, Depressed music and caffeine are my life blood. I rather have the honest answer than the comforting one, I also communicate in this manner. My fear is being too much for my loved ones due to my drive for improvement for myself, environment, and them. I also simultaneously fear not pulling my own weight. I feel like I can have over the top emotions but I dislike this about myself so I do everything I can to get them under "control" I also loathe being controlled by anyone or anything. I keep a tight grip on my caffeine and nicotine consumption for this reason but I also indulge in caffeine/nicotine because I want more energy for productivity. The only way I can relax guilt free is out in nature away from everything.