Exercise in ED recovery

Hello, I’m struggling with the feeling of needing to “earn my food” or “not push in recovery” if I don’t go for daily walks everyday. I’ve gotten better with not HAVING to go a certain distance or time but I have to have some sort of movement or exercise or I look at myself as a failure, lazy etc. The guilt can be so overwhelming and consuming due to being ADHD with hyperfixation issues on exercise or being perfect everyday. Does anyone have advice on how to manage my feelings around this issue? I’m not feeling “on top of my game” today and am struggling to be okay without doing any form of movement in order to not restrict or mentally count calories in my head. I am horrible at comparing myself with my fiancé or friends and what they did for “exercise” today and if they did and I didn’t, I shouldn’t be “allowed” to eat. Please help a girl out. I’m on a the verge of tears. Thanks 🥺