Shooting heroin before therapy session

I have a virtual appointment with my therapist on Monday, and I’ve compiled a list of things I want to talk about. in a lot of sessions, I’m too shy to talk about certain topics, or the classic thing happens where suddenly you feel like everything’s fine and you have no issues.

I’m very uninhibited when I shoot up, and I don’t give a shit about anything. That’s the attitude I need in therapy, because I’m tired of paying $35 per session and not getting anything out of it. I shit you not, one time she made me do a guided meditation where she literally put in a YouTube video for me to meditate to. For 20 minutes. That’s the most expensive YouTube video I’ve ever watched lmfao. Total bullshit, I told her not to do that again.

I’ve had it up to here with this therapist, and if I don’t get anything out of the next session I’m finding a new one.