Fellas, I'm losing the flame...
Played a few killer games today, and I actually felt my tank run empty. I don't play one killer specifically, usually just challenge hop then will weave in and out of the killers I do best with or whatever flavor I crave. I run a variety of builds, meta and synergy with some random different stuff in between. The competition rarely drops below menacing.
Today I had games with bully squads, toxic players, kind players, full out meta swfs knocking out all the gens in 3 minutes, bad maps, and worse maps. I got a 4k or two, 1k once or twice, 2 hook once.
Specifically today after a terrible match on one of my best, I could feel the frustration creeping out with the drive and the hope. EGC was kind words. All I could say was,"Y'all can win. I just cant give the effort it takes to win anymore."
I feel it slipping. I really enjoy this game. The problem is more specifically I enjoy winning in this game. And the more we win, the more we must try. I can't bring C tier killers anymore. Off meta perks and friendly playstyles are too risky. I'm being funneled into this sweaty, overbearing mentality to dredge the fun out. Deeper and deeper I must go. I'm tired of it. I think it's getting time for me to hang it up. I can hear the call to keep going back in, but I'm losing the purpose. Feel free to share and discuss.
Played a few killer games today, and I actually felt my tank run empty. I don't play one killer specifically, usually just challenge hop then will weave in and out of the killers I do best with or whatever flavor I crave. I run a variety of builds, meta and synergy with some random different stuff in between. The competition rarely drops below menacing.
Today I had games with bully squads, toxic players, kind players, full out meta swfs knocking out all the gens in 3 minutes, bad maps, and worse maps. I got a 4k or two, 1k once or twice, 2 hook once.
Specifically today after a terrible match on one of my best, I could feel the frustration creeping out with the drive and the hope. EGC was kind words. All I could say was,"Y'all can win. I just cant give the effort it takes to win anymore."
I feel it slipping. I really enjoy this game. The problem is more specifically I enjoy winning in this game. And the more we win, the more we must try. I can't bring C tier killers anymore. Off meta perks and friendly playstyles are too risky. I'm being funneled into this sweaty, overbearing mentality to dredge the fun out. Deeper and deeper I must go. I'm tired of it. I think it's getting time for me to hang it up. I can hear the call to keep going back in, but I'm losing the purpose. Feel free to share and discuss.