I encountered god yesterday
This might sound silly, but I wanted to document my experience. I grew up with a catholic mother who did not share her beliefs much as she wanted me to make my own decisions and an atheist father and brother who influenced me heavily. Until only a few months ago I did not believe in god. I remember a few months ago I felt like giving up and asked for a sign, and immediately after saw an ad for god on the TV. The same thing happened over and over, until it was clear what was going on. Despite that I had still not been a good Christian. I would sin often, many times a day and many ways. Yesterday I was trying to make dinner when I sliced my finger awfully. It was bleeding everywhere and I had no idea what to do. I tried to wrap it myself and get a ride to the ER but the pain was unbearable and I could barely contain it. The bleeding was heavy and it was getting everywhere. I remember sitting in the car saying to god, I know I have been un-christianlike up until now, but I need you to grant me strength in this moment, and a few other things that are unnecessary for the purpose of this post. Immediately, the wound started to feel better. The pain was still immense but no longer impossibly bad, and the bleeding began to slow. I am making this post to keep myself accountable. Even if nobody sees it, I am creating it for the purpose of keeping a record of myself trying to better myself. God served me yesterday, and it is my turn to return the favor. This marks day 1 of trying to live a sin-free life. Wish me luck.