This still traumatises me to this day.

I’m here because I’ve been carrying this memory for years, and it still bothers me to this day. Back in 2007, I was only 9 years old. I was hanging out with a 15-year-old friend, and one day, he told me to check out a website called LiveLeak. At that age, I didn’t really know what it was, but my friend told me it was like YouTube and had all sorts of crazy stuff on it. To be honest, I was excited to see something new and “cool.”

So, I went on the website, and everything seemed fine at first. It looked like YouTube to me. But then I saw a video called 3 Guys 1 Hammer. The name caught my attention, and I thought it was just some random, weird video—nothing too serious. I had no idea what I was about to watch.

When I clicked on it, everything changed. What I saw was a man being brutally killed. I can’t even begin to explain how horrifying it was. I wasn’t ready for that. No 9-year-old should have been exposed to that. The images and sounds from that video stayed with me for days, and I couldn’t sleep for almost three days straight. My mind kept replaying what I’d seen, and it felt like I couldn’t escape it. I was scared, confused, and felt like I was carrying a weight I wasn’t old enough to understand.

I didn’t know who to talk to about it. I just kept it inside, and over the years, it’s stuck with me. It’s impacted the way I look at the internet, and I’ve had trouble watching certain things since then. It’s crazy how one click can change everything.

I wanted to share this here because it’s something that’s stayed with me for a long time. I’m still processing it, and I just wondered if anyone else has had a similar experience—stumbling onto something you weren’t ready for, something that left a mark on you.