suicidal because of collapse and wanted to vent, will delete in 5 minutes ✌️

i’ll seek attention here cause i don’t know what to do 🤪 my body has the most insane reactions to things that shouldn’t even be that bad so i’ve been going into collapse every single day since i can remember. it definitely has something to do with me being autistic and processing these things differently and being more sensitive i guess. i actually never killed myself because of the collapse cause i obviously can’t move when it happens but when it wears off the urges to stop that from happening ever again are super intense