Me and my boyfriend have broken up 8 times what do i do

Okay so my boyfriend has broken up with me 8 times. He seems to have an avoidant attachment stye while i have an anxious one. so there is always this back and forth pull between us. he has broken up with me all 8 times but has come back all 7 times this 8th time it’s like day 3 of no contact. he has me blocked on everything. i’m stuck between move on or wait and it’s so hard. i have so much love for this guy and he’s a really good boyfriend when his avoidant tendencies aren’t there. this last time we broke up he had broken up with me twice in a week we would hook up for a day or two and then he dumped me and i haven’t heard from him in three days. it hurts and im starting to realize i can’t sit and wait around forever for him to comeback. i realize he is going to regret what he has done. i like to think im a good girlfriend but hey im not him and i dont know. honestly what im hoping for is he comes back and i can not make it so easy for him to comeback so maybe he chases me a bit. am i crazy?? i dont know i really love this guy and im just not ready to let go.