I have to euthanize my beardie.

So today, in an hour and a half I have to euthanize my beardie, fluffy. Awhile ago we find out that he is a hermaphodite, and we had him on antibiotics for awhile and it seemed he was getting better but he was not. My vet, in Jacksonville Florida, (Dr. Rossi) said he could put fluffy on stronger antibiotics however when they did the scan they found cancer. He kept on asking me, and telling me, if you put him on antibiotics he could live for 3 more months. I had kept saying no, because I do not want him to suffer, and he proceeded to say to me and my mother “so you’re done with him?” No, I am not done with him, I am done letting him continue to suffer.

I am angry at my vet for pretty much just wanting to get more and more money out of me and my mother, by trying to prescribe antibiotics to let him live for 3 months more, allowing him to suffer endlessly for those 3 months. When I go to the vet today, I will be telling the vet I will never be going there again as all he cares about is money and not the wellbeing of his “patients”.

I bought fluffy from Petco, and he was a teenager when I got him. I feel horrible as it was my first reptile and I felt I could’ve done better though I know I probably couldn’t. I have given him love, as much as I could. And even just now it feels weird seeing an empty tank. I don’t know what to do or what to think. I feel like it could’ve been prevented, but I am not sure. I will ask the vet if it was my own fault, or if there is something he could’ve done. (The vet could’ve done). Tactics with losing him and what I could or should do. I mean, what do I even do with his tank. I miss him so much already, just miss seeing his little face. His hands plopping around in the water.

I will not be including pictures as even I do not want to see fluffy passed away, so do not worry about that.

1st picture is him on a towel, he seemed uncomfortable and I know we are not supposed to use paper towels but I had known I was going to have to put him down soon, so I had wanted to make him as comfortable as possible. 2nd picture is him on me.