I cant take this shit anymore

I cant i cant keep fighting this illness. If this is not better in december this year i will end it. I cant keep fighting every single day anymore. I cant deal with the constant unhappiness. Its too much If its still the same in a year then ive fought enough. I just want to rest my head. One. Single . Day I cant, i cant deal with having no love, watching others get it, not suceed with what i do and feel so alone.