Do these cuts need medical attention (trigger warning)
20M Non smoker (quit in 2023) but I am recently back to chain vaping disposable 20mg vapes. I kill a 600 puff one in a couple hours. Diagnosis: depression, anxiety, autism, borderline personality disorder, tachycardia and palpitations, tourettes, chronic self harmer Meds: quetiapine, mirtazipine, zolpidem, melatonin prolonged release, bisoprolol, Desogestrel, sustanon, vitamin, psyllium husk
I'm a chronic self harmer and I relapsed today after being clean for a few weeks. I'm already seeking help from the mental health team and have an appointment with them next week but tonight I cut and I went a bit deeper than I should've. I couldn't stop and just kept swiping. They bled for a while and started bleeding again when I cleaned and dressed them. I know I've went into the fat layer as you can see the fat bubbles, I can't tell if they're significant enough to need medical attention or not though. The cuts are on my right upper arm towards the middle. I cleaned with tap water (ran out of saline) and sterile gauze and dressed them with a layer of gauze and a stretch bandage. I'd like to avoid going to a doctor if possible but if I need to, I will. Cuts are about an hour or two old currently. I would've applied steri strips but I have none. No loss of mobility in arm aside from obvious pain. Bleeding lasted about 10 mins the first time and then I went deeper. Lasted about 15 mins after that, bled through about 3 packs of gauze before eventually it stopped after applying constant pressure.
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Edit:
Thank you everyone so much for all the advice and support. I made the dumb decision to not go to hospital last night, I cleaned up took my meds and fell asleep because I had no way to get there without my family finding out and believe me, that would not help at all. I'm doing okay now, the wounds are clean and wrapped and I'm going to keep a VERY close eye on the situation. I also have a plan with a close friend now so if anything like this happens again, we can get to hospital and have it seen too. I'm going to keep a careful look out for any signs of infection and I will get medical help if anything starts looking bad. I have an appointment with the mental health team next week and I'm going to be honest and tell them what's going on and hopefully get some help. I'm sorry I know this isn't the preferred update and I swear I would've gone in if I could've without things hitting the fan here at home. I am still so grateful for the advice, I'm feeling a lot more confident in getting the help I know I need now.
Edit 2: update, I went to minor injuries today and though I missed the window for stitches, they glued and steri stripped them the best they could and gave me some guidance on how to care for them.