35, no career, is it over?
I'm embarrass about my situation. I've lived 35 years of my life without a stable career, in a roommate living situation in a HCOL area.
I do look younger than my age, and I take care of my health and body (I go to the gym 3-4x a week resistance training, and I eat mostly lean proteins and veggies. I take care of my hygiene.
I do put myself out there to meet people and lucky to have a few close friends in my life. I have traveled across the globe and I do work a remote job flipping stuff
However, the only thing missing is the idea of a career. I constantly get pressure from my mom, siblings to get a career working a big name job or at least climb the corporate ladder. The thing is I never really held a traditional job. I've spent ~10 years finishing my bachelor degree only to never use it (economics). I graduated with the bare minimum GPA (lots of F's and D grades), so even if I wanted to go graduate school route and change the trajectory of my career I'll be hard press to get accepted to any schools who would take me. Also, idk what I would be interested in.
Being 35 and still hopeful to find someone to date, career will indefinitely come up. I've been putting off dating for this very reason. However, I can't do that forever so I have this date with a women coming up from a dating app soon. All I can stress about is self sabotaging it because I am not confident about my future. I know at the age she will most definitely care and will probably reject me given my situation. I know its a self defeating attitude but it is honestly how I feel.
having this pressure to be smart/intelligent and living up to your potential runs huge in the community. Every person I know work in tech, computer science, engineering, law, doctor and I am just a loser in comparison