AP reached out today - 4 months exactly after dday

So, as the title says, AP reached out today for the first time after having absolutely no contact for 4 months.

She didn’t text my WH, she texted me. She was my best friend, and I had blocked her from everywhere. But WhatsApp has one loophole: if you are still a part of a group chat in which they are a part of, they can still text you (do what you will with that information!). We were both the sole members of a very old group from 2022, and she used it to send me a song.

The lyrics are romantic in nature, but it basically talks about missing someone a lot, not being able to forget about the relationship they once shared and feeling miserable. My dumbass brain with a savior complex immediately wanted to ask her if she was ok (after all, why reach out after so long?) but thank God I didn’t and that my real friends were there to tell me to send her to hell. I exited the group and deleted the text without replying anything.

Truth being told, all I could think about was that those lyrics were meant for my husband (although we figured out the 3 of us were in 3 other groups that we hadn’t noticed, so she could have reached out there). But I will never not think that she doesn’t miss me or our friendship, but that she misses whatever the hell she had with my WH.

What pisses me off the most is that I thought I was getting stronger. I thought I was in such a good place that I could see her again and not freak out. But I nearly fainted when I saw her message. It fucks me up that she still has that power over me.

And it FUCKS ME UP that a small part of me is still worried about her. A part of me is wondering if she is ok or if she needs a friend. Can someone please tell me that I am being stupid and give me some advice on how I can stop thinking about this? It ruined my day a little bit and I could use some insights.