I hate being home someone help me.

IM SORRY IF THIS DOESNT FIT HERE. I don’t know where to put this. And a lot of this will be a rant (sorry once again) but it’s context for the question.

TW FOR SH, SA, HOMOPHOBIA AND TRANSPHOBIC

13 yr old. I’m AFAB. They believe that sex ed shouldn’t exist, queer and trans kids can’t exist bc my mom didn’t have feelings for anyone at my age. I started to get puberty very early as I had public hair at 7. My dad has made jokes about hitting suicidal kids, and have said he’s thought of hitting me but has SELF RESPECT. I asked if he meant morals. He said multiple times it’s self respect. My mom doesn’t believe me. My mom has made jokes about hitting me since I was 10 if I disobeyed. I have SH but been clean for 2 months now (scratching not cuts). My parents know I have been like this since 6th grade now I’m in 8th. They got me a school therapist but they never mentioned about my sh or SA experience as I technically consented to both but was very pressured. They took the one done by a trans girl a year younger than me who only kissed my neck and we had sexual convo over text and has posted nsfw on Reddit (the relationship lasted around a year) MORE SERIOUSLY than the one that lasted over a year and happened more than once and by another girl my age who we had half sex in her words but really it’s sex without the entering of vagina. They literally said I had part blame and said it could’ve been worse by an older man. Not to mention they’ve threaten to send me to a boarding school over being in a GSA and not going downstairs enough and have threatened to move to the country side because I had a mental breakdown over not wanting to do a math problem in a homework (dad saw my preferred name on sheet). There’s also the time my mom said she’ll smack my violin bow into my teeth if I drop or twirl it again then I did it by dropping and she tried to grab it and I kept it away when I fell, then she grabbed my metal violin case that was near by and acted like I was about to be hit by raising it and I closed my eyes in fear then dropped it on the couch and chuckled and went away. And once got mad and yelled at me for not washing my hair properly when my mom didn’t teach me until I was 10 saying 2-5 years old could and let me shower fully naked with her adult friend in Iran when I was 8.

I don’t want to go to foster care which I can assume is an option if I told a teacher or something. I don’t know who to tell. I can’t stand it but I have to for 5 more years. I don’t know what to do. Please I feel like I’m insane because I feel like I’m overreacting while knowing I’m not. I also have high signs or adhd and have friend with it who constantly tell me I probably have it and should get tested but my parents don’t believe. I think I need help but I still don’t what to be taken by cps or something. I don’t know how much I can handle.

What should I do?

I’m sorry if this doesn’t fit here I just don’t know what to do and I know my friends might have worse or not want to hear due to their mental health not being well either.