How did you feel when you turned 30?

I (female) turned 30 today and it's the saddest day in my life. I wasted my 20s doing nothing and I regret it.

I remember when I turned 26 I felt I was old and was anxious about reaching 30 but I was happy at the same time because I still had time. I feel shitty when I think about how dumb I was thinking 26 is old and it tears me apart. I would kill to be 26 again. 30 is not young anymore. I'm not young anymore I cry a lot when I remember my 26th birthday, everything was still so good.

I'm still single and virgin living with my mom. I'm ashamed of my age.

I used to play ps5 everyday but it's been a month since I stopped playing games because I'm ashamed of my age. I feel like life will never be same as when I was a teen or when I was in my 20s.