Desperately Seeking Diagnosis

If I don't get a diagnosis soon I'll scream. Spent the last two days bed rotting and wanting to die, and today I'm up and dancing and cleaning the house and doing all the things. I'm so over these mood swings. For those interested: I'm 48, history of anxiety and depression, currently in perimenopause. Have been on lexapro for years, tried TMS, acute noise senstivity, shithouse cognitive skills, brilliant hyperfocus on stuff I enjoy and a history of job hopping. You know the drill. I'm currently waiting to see an ADHD specialist (3-4 months away) and if I don't get confirmation of ADHD I think I'll cry, because it's the only thing that now makes sense.

I don't recall any major red flags when I was younger, although professionals may say otherwise. But as I'm heading into menopause, my symptoms are really ramping up and I feel broken and messy every day. We recently had to sell my mum's house after she passed away and I had to hand all the paperwork and admin to my brother because my brain just wouldn't work. Not because of the grief (I'm good at that part), but because I have ceased to be able to focus on anything remotely uninteresting or complicated. When people talk, I mostly hear "words words words, words?' and absorb nothing. I seriously thought I was getting dementia, but then I heard about how menopause can exacerbate symptoms of ADHD. Is this the golden ticket I've been looking for? It would explain so much.

Anyway, thanks for listening. I'm off for a coffee nap.