I feel so shit

I’m 5 months on hrt and I am visibly ”too” feminine to present as a guy but not feminine enough to look like a woman. I feel like I look like a weird blend between the two and all I wanna do is blend in (which I have been through boymoding) but now I stick out so much in public I dont know what to do. My breasts are growing so much I feel like just a fat guy with man boobs instead of feeling pretty and feminine