So here it is…

When you find out everyone is really against you and just wants to use you even family wtf….. Let me just start by saying I really have no clue as to why any of this is happening why people are out to get me I feel like my whole fucking life has been a lie but why? I just don’t understand I not perfect here but like why did this all start and when? For what reason Damnit!!!! I just can’t take this anymore I just want to go to sleep and never wake up this nightmare isn’t ever going to end and fuck you for making me think you were the good guy here and showing me once again you are not! I can’t ever trust anyone again just sit in this house alone with my thoughts maybe it’s what I deserve maybe I am the narc maybe I do deserve this but I have never felt so much desperation and pain in my life than I do now so just do whatever you are going to do and get it over with damnit!!! I did love all of you now I’m just a shell of a person worse than before I won’t ever get out of this alive I just can’t do it anymore.