A fate worse than death

3 days and not a single second of sleep. Can't do anything, can't feel anything and have completely lost function. I'm bedridden and just waiting for something to give.

The escalation of my symptoms is concerning. There is absolutely no sleep drive. I just toss, turn, sweat and get random body jolts. The mental decline is even worse. I feel like I'm going to lose everything, not that I have much.

It's absolutely hopeless. This has been going on for too long and I'm not willing to go through the rest of my life like this. Even when I sleep more "normal", there's many awakenings through the night. I'm constantly compromised.

If this can't be resolved, then I don't want to be here any more.