How Did You Mentally Prepare For Laparoscopy?

I have a surgery date! On the 20th, I get to find out if I have endometriosis. The only thing is, I was expecting it to take a few more months, if not a year, to schedule surgery. So when they called me and said a slot opened up, I said yes but I am woefully underprepared.

I really hate the idea of having someone, especially a stranger and a man, poking and prodding around in me, I do really poorly with general anesthetic (it makes me nonstop vomit which is not great for my emetophobia), I don't like the idea of being inflated with CO2, not to mention THE UTERINE MANIPULATOR

I think physically, I'm as prepared as I'm going to be, but I haven't mentally processed what surgery means for me, what I will do in the event they don't find anything.

So, what did you do to mentally prepare for your laparoscopic surgery?

EDIT 11/21/24: i posted an update (https://www.reddit.com/r/endometriosis/comments/1gw5jbn/update_it_wasnt_there/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=mweb3x&utm_name=mweb3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button) in case anyone was curious. and thank you all so much for supporting and reassuring me and sending love ❤️❤️