Where are these hot conservative hijabi/niqabi women?

I had tried to kill myself a few days ago and I can't bring myself to commit suicide over this. There's no way out for me, I have to keep suffering with unfulfilled desires and keep being perpetually frustrated for life.

Everyone keeps telling me to not kill myself because I can't marry a hot immodest non-hijabi because apparently there are pious hijabis and niqabis who are as hot as these women, who have a body like these insta girls, who would love to dress immodestly like these women for their husbands. Where are these magical rare creatures then? Everyone keeps saying these women exist and all Muslim women are like that but I have yet to see solid evidence. I would have a higher chance of finding an alien in my backyard.

I'm not saying I want these women to take off their hijab/burqa and show their body astaghfirullah. But I have personally never seen or even heard of them existing.

And yes, even if they exist, they wouldn't want me just like these pretty non-hijabis don't want me because I objectify and sexualize women and care for their body more than anything. So its pointless to tell me to not kill myself and go marry a pious Muslim woman who will be hot like them. These sort of hot pious Muslimahs won't be attracted to me too. I'm just destined to never have a girl and stay single for eternity.