What do you hate the most about being autistic?

What I hate the most is the unending feeling of worthlessness. Because it is impossible to know my limits. It is impossible to know if the problems I have with employment, having a basic life, etc are me or the disability. Meaning there is always part of me thinking I'm in this situation due to my own fault. That I didn't try hard enough, I gave up when I can keep going, that I'm making stuff up, etc.

So as I sit in a toxic environment, is that due to me simply not getting up and walking out by doing the right things? Or is it, this is truly the best it gets for me?

What do you hate the most about being autistic?